I feel like I am getting dirty. Pain makes one dirty. And then a need to dig out, and be washed over.
I have learned that I am more introverted than I thought. I long to be home, to be close, to be quiet. I dread being the center of attention and hosting an event. I love close gatherings where people that I love through friendship, or community, can deep talk. I need deep talk- it lifts the dirt away. When I feel the need to separate and seclude myself, it is then that I know that I should step closer.
Seclusion equals walls. Don't hole yourself up. Don't perfect yourself into a little box, sealed up closed. Instead lay down, or stand still- let your shoulders rub with diverse people. Let God be your foundation and let Him move you.
I feel the need to secure foundations. To check the perimeters. But, I also feel the need to be moved. Some shaking, and shifting, and settling is good. These things can speak that foundations are strong. Shake off the dirt. Renovate the insides. Put the dirt under my feet, and use it for solid ground.
