One of these things.

One of these things, these major decisions, is about babes. I think I am ready to be done having any more kids. I am fine with having Aiden, Gemma, and Keiran. I don't think of them as numbers so three is fine. I think of them as my independent strong boy, my beautiful, quiet, poised girl, and my soft hearted, fun baby boy.
If I could just have one more and sit back and gaze on my gorgeous treasures, I might have more. I am too tired, too impatient from being too tired, and my body has been pushed to the limit. There is sickness all winter and Aiden is starting kindergarten in September. I will be onto the next step.
I have mixed feelings about leaving the baby stage but it will bring relief, and camping trips, and other family fun.
And I don't think of myself as a mother of three. I have five babes. I feel five babes. I see five babes. I am so thankful for the dreams that God gave me of my lost babes. I can see their faces in my mind's eye, although sometimes it gets a bit blurry.... of a little spiky haired, blue-eyed boy and a dark, curly haired, big brown eyed girl.............