New Years Revelation

Tomorrow I turn thirty-one. This year has been amazing. I am excited for the year to come. This year I am going to give up my fear. Hand it over. To God.....
My anxiety. I call it "my." Like it is an entity of itself. Because it is. I couldn't analyze it away so I let it sit awhile. It sits on my shoulders. I can see it in my mind. It is a huge creature with a wingspan of an angel.... a fallen angel. It has two sets of claws, the first set into my shoulders, clinging to my neck. The second set digs into the middle of my back, between my shoulder blades- if I let this, my anxiety, take charge, it squeezes until my lungs are affected. I fight with it often, but who can fight something that is behind themselves.
Ah, there is revelation..... it is behind me. I pushed it away awhile back but it hovered until it could attack again. It is hard to fight. I need help. I have been asking for help. It is coming. Hope is coming. I am excited. This anxiety is not. It tightens on my shoulders as I write this. You might think this strange but I do not. And I am not frightened lately either. Anxiety, which is not mine, which is not of God, is losing it's grip.  I can't wait to see what God brings this year. I have an inkling. I have faith, and He will build onto it.

More Than Conquerors
Romans 8:28-39~ And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all- how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died- more than that, who was raised to life- is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written:
"For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered."
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.