On the outside looking in.

Remember that post about "holding your step?" Well, I called a "hold your step." I had to. I think it is bad timing though....but isn't it always. A hold your step is a "please pause and think this through- you are about to see this thing come to fruition and it may not be good." Ugh. I want to say sorry because I am sure that I hurt the person's feelings but I can't. I needed to say this. It would not go away. You know those times the concern lasts for days and wakes you up at night. Where there is an urgency. I think it is a God thing. And I wrestled with minding my own business but I realized that being obedient doesn't mean that I only get to encourage in good. I mean the way seems good in this situation, but it is blinding good. The fruit is bad. Ugly. Sexualized. Excused. "Funny." It may be somewhat pretend but eventually it will become truth. I wish you could read this friend. I meant not to harm you. I meant not to discourage you. I think though that you are on the wrong side of the mirror. The parallelled darkness. Every good and perfect gift comes from the Father of Lights. My God wouldn't do it this way. Your God, that same God, wouldn't do it this way. It doesn't match up with his word. And he knows you my friend. He LOVES you. He gave you this gift. He wants to give you the desires of your heart. But not this way. So I am sorry friend.... but not for speaking the truth. I measured my words over and over again. I did not say what I said to condemn, but to say, "hold your step." I really didn't want you to be angry at me. I hoped that you had an inkling and that maybe it would be your confirmation.... the nudging on your jacket to turn away. A crowd is forming and they are all going to see this fight. They are going to see how this turns out, your family and all. I am still hoping that you bow out and honor truth. In the meantime I will be here praying for you earnestly. And if you choose to stay and "see how this goes," my God.... your God, will pick you up on the other side....