day two of stepping

Today felt like step two. Step one was making the decision and testing the waters for the last two weeks. Today I talked to my mother and sent a note to a loved mentor/teacher at the church that we will now step away from. This step takes us into a new place. It feels like a good place. There is a sense of betterment for my family. I will still be testing these waters in a way, but in them, not at the edge peering in. Last night I was thinking about the community that we are leaving and a thought summed it up for me.... It is like someone is not living quite right but you keep making excuses for them because you love them. I feel this about the church. There are changes that need to happen and an opening of eyes towards why the families are all leaving. Maybe no one can fix this and that is fine. God can fix it if people are willing. I will leave it at that. I don't want to say bad words about it all but I do know that I will go where there is more of what I want for my kids. Garry is good with it (although he says that church is my thing, but it is still important to me to talk about it with him), and the kids are happy to see their friends again, since many are over here at this place. I actually can't wait until Sunday to see what the kids think. Only Gemma and I have gone before for a friend's dedication, so for the boys it will be all new. It is interesting that it is at Aiden's age where my family (when I was young) made a move to a new church and it made all the difference in my life.