Three times.

I do not write because I think I am the queen. I write to work things out. It seems as when I write, my thoughts can be clear and I can find the truth that I am looking for....
And when I say, "we" it is not because I am preaching to an audience it is because I am struggling with a friend or venting. We are all struggling. I can feel the pain and it is overwhelming me.
Right now I am tortured by thoughts all day long. I want to step in and help my dear friend. But I cannot show her- she has to see herself. I have a page of thoughts that I have been writing out, just to release these thoughts from my mind, but it is not helping. I feel like she is on the ledge but I can't get to her to hold her in. Her back is to her safe place and she is ready to jump. She thinks she can fly. Someone told her she can fly. But she will fall.
I fell once. It was a long walk back up the mountain.....