Bringing to the Table.

Everything is learned. Everything. And I want to be intentional. So, what does that look like? What do I let influence me? Who do I let teach me, mold me? And what about my children.... who do I let influence them? How do I stay ever changing, ever striving with a heart like King David? I cherish the friends that are like this. The ones that are changing and growing. The ones that know they are flawed, yet know that they are being perfected. Not perfect, but changing. Not stagnant, but stepping forward as much as able. Then, how do I influence those around me the same as I wish to be influenced? Do I let everything fall as it may? Again, am I intentional? Things cannot be undone. Things can be used for good, but cannot be undone.
I read a book awhile ago. I wish I had not. I had to finish it, had to reconcile this disturbing story. I could not undo it and so I read on, hoping for some redeeming factor. There was completion but no redemption. A hopeless story; God was not in it.
God is in my story.... When I am intentional, maybe when I am not. If I am His, and I am, then he plans it all out. Even when I start a Godless tale, he redeems my endings. My middles too. He changes and reconciles all things concerning me. I am thankful that my God is not some magic genie waiting to be appeased, but is personal. He doesn't grant me wishes, but waits until I come to Him and then He starts unfolding plans already written. Good plans. 
Right now, I have become intentional with myself and with my kids. I am being taught and learning firsthand from the Word of God. I am teaching my children from the foundation, and at home. What next? How do I be intentional with who I influence? How do I reach outwardly again now that foundations have been restored? What do I give of myself without tiring? Who do I keep, or let, in my sphere of influence? I think, only those who are willing to move? The ones who are genuine. Everything teaches. Some things taint. I don't want to stain someone of my weaknesses. I don't want theirs either. But, we need each other to see these things. Singularity brings blindness. So, who do I influence that influences me right back? Do they rejoice in evil? Do they tell me the truth? Do I listen to the truth? Can I tell them the truth? I am big on truth.
All these things bring me right back to God and His plan, and the question.... Am I intentional?   
A new heart prayer.... To be wholly intentional.