humbled in God's presence.

This morning I am humbled. By a woman the same as me. But different. She was abused. She is broken. She is like me but more. I am humbled. My eyes are open. I see now where my God had his hand over me. I was abused but it ended. It was not a huge fearful place for me. I was young and realised the wrong and even though the other had pushed on, it ended right there. And there was no fear. There is fear in many things for me, but here no fear. That is big. God had his hand in this I am sure. My lot was drawn but God turned the tables. And I am humbled.
I have always been able to find the truths, to find the lesson, in all that has happened, but never in this lot. Now I know. It was just a lot. But my God turned it around.
That same year I had found him. This is where he took over. This is where I gave him control. At six. And he has had his hand in everything since then.
I have been sword fighting on this mountain plateau for weeks. I am thankful for a new truth.

My sword:
Keep me safe, oh God, for in you I take refuge.
I said to the LORD, "You are my Lord, apart from you, I have no good thing."
As for the saints who are in the land, they are the glorious ones in whom is all my delight.
The sorrows of those will increase who run after other gods.
I will not pour out their libations of blood or take up their names on my lips.
LORD, you have assigned for me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure.
The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance.
I will praise the LORD, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me.
I have set the LORD always before me.
Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body will also rest secure, because you will not abandon me to the grave, nor will you let your Holy One see decay.
You have made know to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
~ a miktam of David, Psalm 16