Joy

I am there.
God said, "YOU ARE MINE <3." And I heard him and understood. It is NOT too late. You can't be disowned. You don't get to pick your family. He is my family. I am yours LORD.....
I can feel the warm wind again. I have passed the death. I have walked the rutty field. I am standing on the edge of a giant crevasse. I am not afraid to fall off. I might jump off even. There is nothing there but God.
I can run now. I can scream out loud. I can take my time on the trail down. You will hear me singing. A song that comes from my soul.
But really. I had prayer counselling this morning. I had to. I felt like I was about to die.
I say to my kids often, "Do you know how much I love you?"....."Big, big big big Big big love:)" It is like that.