Last night I had some interesting dreams. This morning I was thinking on one part in which I was reminded what it felt like to serve in missions, and realized in my dream, that God was restoring my heart for missions. As I drove my son to school, I thought about how I am preparing to homeschool. How I have been content in the home that we now live in, and I am not striving for a bigger, nicer house anymore. I have no desire to scan the real estate pages or drool over home plan magazines. And this house has many updates needed. I am content with just enough. It makes me laugh at the potential in my mind. A sustainable family. I have no desire to pack up and head for the mission field anytime soon but it reminds me that God's plans are in effect and working before we even make a choice for change. He is equipping us, and using everything. Before we make a choice, he is preparing the way. Whispering encouragements in our ears. Planting seeds in our hearts. I am overwhelmed with expectant anticipation at what life will look like ongoing. God has been doing good things. I cannot share them all yet. It will come.
Yesterday was a downer.... "attack of the killer angel;" the one who accuses and adds up all evil, all failure. I am glad to say that God can use all my failure for His good. Might I add that this morning my bible study was talking about extending yourself to the poor and hungry. The oppressed. Fitting as always. I have been asking God for new dreams. I am past all the ones I imagined. He is unfailing and is giving me new ones. I have outlived my plans. Haha. Now I want to live on His.
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