When I was young I wanted to die when I was fifty. I wanted to have my kids and then die young. Now I want to live until I meet all of my great-granchildren.
My Grandpa is in the hospital. He has made it far but now his lungs don't want to breathe anymore. They won't produce oxygen and he could go to sleep and not wake up. The family is having a hard time to decide what to do. He has never wanted to be on machines, living with tubes in him. My uncle wondered how do you choose whether you live or die. My husband says it is selfish for him to just die and leave everyone. I say it is selfish for everyone to expect him to stay around in this state. We both have good intentions. We both hate selfishness.
I was told that there are many questions that the family has to ask now. I say that there is just one. Does he know God? If he does then all confusion should fall to the side. If the family really believes then they will have peace in the fact that he is with Jesus. It will still be hard to let him go but this life is the short one. He will be having a new birthday the day he leaves. I heard someone say today that all you have to do is say yes. God wants you... just say yes. I hope to hear that he has or is saying just that before he goes. Then I can see him in heaven. And he can meet his other grandchildren. God give someone the strength and the words to lead him on.
I don't mean to take life lightly. My Grandpa is still struggling with life. Still pulling out tubes. I am still praying for him to choose God and be able to come home. I prayed for him to know God and be able to see him in Heaven tonight and my son asked if we would be able to see God. I love moments like these.
ReplyDeleteBy the way my Grandpa is on his way home. He is recovering well. My four year old says it is because we prayed for him to get better:)
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