I am excited for tomorrow. For Monday. We have an amazing women's ministry at our church. I for one, would not like to ever take it for granted. In the morning we have a place in the church basement to lay down our momness for awhile and rest. A place to fellowship with women who understand children. A place where Grandmother's add to the love by watching over our blessings. A place where friends meet and uplift each other. I am grateful for this ministry.
Then at night I am now attending a bible study group. Same place, but there I get to fellowship with more women of different wisdoms. I love it. It is purposeful. It stretches me to use my grown-up brain for awhile. It is encouraging.
I am in need of these times. I love my children to no end. I often miss out on times to be ministered to. Or to participate. I want to go for prayer. I want to sing in worship. I want to hear a full sermon. I have been trying for weeks. All I hear are beautiful giggles, silly peekaboos, seeking-mommy-comfort cries. I love these things but there must be a time to receive. I feel like I am always giving. I want to be always giving. I need to be encouraged and just hugged for awhile too. We all do. I want to heal, grow, rest, so that I can be more for my kids. More for myself. More for God.
(And a side note to all who are in a relationship of different faiths, unequally yoked. Think on this. If I could hand my child to my husband for a moment, then I could be part of this all. He is supportive but I am held in a certain place because he is not there. And I knew this all but I was too hurt to care. If this is you, please think on future places. If you are fine to be held in one place, carry on. I would not change my husband but I sure would love to lay my blessings down so I could lay my burdens down once in awhile.)
Anyways, I have been fighting it seems the last few days. I am so expectant but there are circumstances that have been pushing against my faith. Alone, I would like to just stop fighting. If I stop moving then there is no pressure. But what would I gain to stand still? This is why there is such a need to keep meeting together. To encourage. To share of yourself and share in. To build faith. I can read my bible anywhere but where can I be built up? On Mondays.
Hebrews 10: 24, 25~ And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another- and all the more as you see the Day approaching.
I've had a thought for a while now, about music. I've heard you mention this desire before and wondered if something could be worked out with you, a certain lovely young pianist with two little boys and I. Not saying we're going to hijack the stage or anything, but the thought occured to me that we could get together and jam now and then, while sharing a babysitter, or probably two with all those rugrats. Might just help to fill that void you are feeling a bit, and just thought it would be fun too. :) I often feel the same way though, more when the kids were younger and hubby was always working. I never had any that young at the same time though, you're my hero!
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