just in time

I was praying for...dun dun dun...patience last night. It is the one thing that I am really struggling with. I am exhausted and need just a spare minute to myself but there are no spare minutes. They are all full, and I get impatient. I don't want it to affect my children. I just want them to be free of anxiety. Aiden chews on his shirt sometimes. I hate it. It scares me that he is "catching" my anxiety. That is the point that you want to send yourself away. Sad thought, but not a lingering one.
This morning in our mom's group where we are studying the book of Esther we were left with the concept of the week...balancing passion verses patience. God knows what he is doing let me tell you. I hope this is the time I get to deal with it and start to change this impatience. I hate that it controls when I am tired. I want to start watching my words. I need to. I need an overhaul.
I need to be free from fear, from anxiety, from impatience.